The First Rule to Fiction (And Maybe Our Entire Existance)

Human kind can not gain something without first giving something in return. To obtain, something of equal value must be lost



(sidenote: that i just thought of: how do you give something in return? if its returned shouldnt it be given first?)
Anyway, the title might be a stretch but this is a quote from Fullmetal Alchemist. A tv show. Yes I said that correctly.

my first thought process on this however didn't hit that thought. I looked at it as a way it could possibly be applied to life as we know it. I originally thought that this quote was a lie. Sure its part of a tv show and thus isn't supposed to answer life questions, but let's be honest... It's fun looking for answers in unprobable locations.

so... I disagreed. I can gain love without giving it. I can better my life without worsening another. I can gain knowledge without losing another kind. This seemed stupid.

And I think it really hit me hard when it said "lost".
But... as my roommate said, to build a house you have to lose some trees.



Then I started playing devil's advocate with myself. If you reread it now and think of Newton's 3rd law (I believe), which states that "every action causes a equal and opposite reaction" then it makes sense in the physical world. But still doesn't seem to hold water outside the realm of solid life.

Let's look at it again though, this time religiously. When it comes to Christianity, Jesus had to die for us to love. And when it comes to Buddhism, this question is about the balance of the universe a lot like yin and yang. So how wrong can it be?


Interesting, so my conclusion is as follows. I do, in fact, agree (and like) this rule (as I have been told to call it) becuase it shows the combined forces of the universe working together. it takes oneself outside the world that they live in and they have to view it as a whole. A scary thought for the land of materialism and power.

So, I can see (and would almost like) to live by this motto. Because it can stand for so much more than just a fictional reality someone created. It can stand for a way of life, a thought process, and a way to break yourself into the thoughts of the world around you.

It can electrify your mind and create a mind blowing debate that you can have with those around you.

And that is what thinking is about, its a way to stop taking your world for granted and start questioning why. You might find out more than you thought possible. You might find out more about yourself.

The Question I Don't Have An Answer To

So I have been pondering this thought over ever since I started dating but in two entirely different ways.

Is it possible to be too truthful in a relationship?
As a teen I believed that truth is all you needed in a relationship and if you had that, then you couldn't do better. so as the lies started building and the problems started occuring, i was sure that trust is the best thing. because the truth is better than lies.

Now, I am in an entirely new relationship and he couldn't trust me more. He couldn't be more truthful. I would love to say I am older and wiser now and that I have some new thought process to back all this up that i once believed in. In all honesty, currently, I think I could have been wrong. I think it might  be possible to be TOO truthful. There are some things maybe that should be left in the dark. or maybe I just need to get used to the idea that nothing is anymore.

I guess I have to process this thought process a bit more. But maybe omitting things isn't as bad as it might seem. 

Double Edged Sword

It wouldn't take much to control her. He knew that. 
Everyone has weaknesses. No one lacks their kryptonite. And he always knew hers and exploited hers, just for another edge to grow on his piercing sword. No one realized her problems were his strength. And even if they did, no one cared.

The only reason he was tough was because he had made her weak. But the more edges he created, the less the craftmanship valued. Anyone could see the weaknesses in slices, the lack of balance in the blade and the way the metal began to look warped. 

He was blinded by his sword. It had become his everything. Why would he need others for, if he had his own strength? And that's all that he had cared about. He needed to be stronger, better and safer than that of his counterpart. Just saw more as better and kept expanding. There was no way to stop him. And she knew it. They all knew it. 

She knew it, better than the rest. And she knew more. She knew that the sword of strength and weaknesses would be the final end of his reign and waited patiently. Every day for years she sat there, she took his hits, she watched the sword grow. And it would be nice to say she was fearless, that she knew better and kept to the course but it wasn't so. 

What she feared most: wasn't the comments, wasn't the pain, but was the fact that that sword would keep growing. That she would have all her weaknesses exposed and thus he would have the ultimate power over the world. 

She had hoped that one day the world would change. That she would find some strength to take it all back. To take control of her own weaknesses and her own life.

He kept up his game. Especially since it was the only one he knew. The sword had grown to the point that he was the only one that could carry it. And he still exploited her. Finally, he realized that he could no longer wield it like he once could. He blamed it on age, she always knew better. The sword had become stronger than the master.

Sure enough, where he was once undefeatable, she watched him fall. Where once he was always victorious. she watched him suffer. She laughed at his naivity and his thirsty for overcontrolled power. And he tried to upgrade himself. To find his strengths to feed from the sword, but alas, there were none. 

He dragged out more weaknesses until his multi-edged sword became too much, too heavy. Even for him to wield.

And this was her chance, finally after all these years she went after his weaknesses. And it was simple. She didn't know how she went on for so long thinking he was godliness. She found the strength she needed, in her own weaknesses. What he called stupid she saw as right. What he saw as wrong, she saw as strength. What he saw as too planned, she saw as stategic. What he saw as careless, she saw as human. 

She lifted his sword well above his hunched over body and swung until his head hit the ground in front of him, while the rest of his body slumped backwards. All this time she thought he was strong and she was weak. Because after all these years, that is what it seemed like. Yet here she was, the hero, the righteous, and the bold. Defeating the man that held her back and made her feel worthless. So she decided to wield the sword. She held the sword of her strengths and weaknesses.

With her sword in hand, she headed out to right those that have done wrong around her. 

And this, this was her destiny.               

   

"I will make him an offer he can't refuse"

I just finished reading The Godfather. I have never been so amazed at a story in all of my life.
And though I have seen the movie, it doesn't dare give the justice and respect that this book deserves. To say that this book has changed my life is a sign of disrespect because that doesn't begin to undermine what has happened.

It is so easy for us, the ill-informed and naive, to believe that good versus evil is just a line across the street that one has the option to choose to cross or a fence someone chooses to hop with one yard "the good" and the other "the bad".

Maybe though, maybe they are two different mediums that support the comparison between good versus evil, where there can not be a steady line. Good versus evil is much more like the earth versus the water. Where the good is a place where your feet are on the ground but your head is in the air. And the Evil is the lurky unknowns of the water.

So then, what is that of the beach? The part of the land that is always soaked with water the deeper you dig, yet on the surface there is no water to be seen. And the closer you get to the water the more visible the wetness is both in your site and under your feet. You can actually feel the water? Does that make you evil? Your feet are still on the land, and your head is still in the water. So are you good or evil?

Furthermore, its possible to be in water on land. we take baths every day where we are completely surrounded in water. Would such a thing make you, then evil? Because although you are surrounded in the enemy land, you are still in control of your own desires.

And lets take it the next step further, if you are indeed, in the water of an ocean, yet it is shallow? what would that make you? Where your feet are still on solid ground yet you feel the waves around your knees. Where your head is still above ground and your feet still walk among it.

And maybe the trickiest of all these comparisons, what if you decide to join the enemy forces and subject yourself to the world of the water? Where you have dove and swam for all your life, yet you want nothing more than to be on the land. So you stopped your diving and swimming with the fish, realizing that you can be even closer to your want, if you just keep your head above the water and in the air?
then all you have left to worry about is your feet.

So maybe the good versus evil line that people paint is just not so thin. Maybe the fence is more like a very thick wall.
Where a man can be both good and bad. He can see the harm done to him yet can see the benefits to that harm. Maybe he can see the harm that a good deed does and that justice is only for those that know what the opposition of justice can cause.

Maybe we all live on the beach and the ideals that there are purely good and purely evil are that of our omnipotent god and devil. And that just depending which direction you face and the acts that you make would help you realize whether you strive for the higher land or the fiery water of hell.

Maybe everyone has a need for a little air to breathe and a craving for the waves at their feet.

hidden messages

people act fake for all different reasons.
Some see it as a way to gain the popular attention that they crave. Others, use it as a way to gain support from a crowd and have the courage to walk into a room full of people that they don't know.

Some are hiding their inner most feelings, their deepest and darkest secrets, and some are hiding themselves.

Everyone has something that they are not comfortable with. But sometimes its weird to see how they approach that said topic.

the people that I am very close with tend to hide from it. They make a fake world that they will live in and that part of their lives are left behind and forgotten about as often as possible. Because they can create a world that they feel comfortable in whether its walking into a crowded room or not being able to justify abuse to other people. Sometimes its easier to just hide and create a fake persona as a way to deal with the hardships a life can bring.

...Those close to them can read their their fakeness and look for the secret hidden message that will help bring the person back into the world as we know it. Instead of a tv show version of the life that they truly believe they live in.

((However, maybe the reason people can point it out is because they too have those dark and hidden problems that they don't want to suffer through alone.))

Epicness

This is probably the most epic badass nerd thing (yes that is possible) EVER.
EVERRRRR.

The Truth Hurts

The Big Bang Theory Scene

You know its a hard life for the beautiful vs the geek. But what a deadly combination if its a mix of both.

I absolutely love this show. I actually am amazed by exactly how much i understand from it. I didnt think I was always that smart. There are so many things in this show that kill me. And this will probably not be the last post about it.

However, this scene i about died laughing. I guess thats the woman i strive to be. who knows what I have ended up as. I mean I love playing video games, however I am not normally much good.

and ohhh how much passionate hate i have for halo. (thats a whole other deadbeat ex boyfriend long story) But give me COD give me Left4Dead give me borderlands and i am going at it. And i can get geekier. Give me Kingdom Hearts, Fire Emblem, Final Fantasy. <3 And I love it all.

But to have brains and beauty? thats a parallel dimension we haven't found yet.