Heartbreak changes people, if not at a biological level, at a spiritual one. There is a reason no one forgets their first love, because no one ever loves the same after that. At first we don't know better, we give and we give until there is nothing more to give and then we give some more. We love with every ounce of our being and believe in happily ever after. We know in our souls that we are blinded, yet we can't give up the reins. And at some point, we lose our battle. The dam breaks and we can't put every drop back where it goes.
Instead of trying to forget that love, we try to overcome and over-compensate for our deficiencies. We try too hard, or not at all. We are guarded, we place ourselves first. We speak up quicker, cry out longer, blame first and we break on a level we can never repair. We scream too much or never. We can't possibly give our all because our all was given and we never got some of the drops back.
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