Longing to Fly

She stared at the window, 

longingly knowing that freedom 

was beyond the forcefield. 

Wanting to know what freedom 

felt like against her silvery wings. 

What the sun's calling heat felt like

on her beak.

The window left cracked--

she pulled herself up and 

nudged her feathers out. 

trying to move like the world did: 

effortlessly and beautiful

she fluttered and flapped

...uselessly.

She stared up at the forcefield

of torture and longing dreams.

The home had paralyzed her.

Her efforts were shallow. Her 

bravery was halted. She hoped 

to fly, to mend, to live without 

clipped wings.

Open Waters: Dare to Try Again?

They threw me in the ocean as
I gasped for a breath, I lost myself
In the blue waters. Up--Down--Left
No way led to salvation.
It was float or swim
And I sank.

Down at the bottom
It didn't matter what I found.
Because I knew which way
Was up. So I took the seaweed
And the bubbles I could find.
Constructing a raft.
And I swam.

Up to the succulent air
Reaching it, I threw my head back
Focused my eyes, envisioned my
Success. And drew my first
Breath. I felt rejuvenated
Unconquerably defiant
And I floated.

Around in the wind
Until they stole my raft
Yet again crashing me into the waves.
Laughing as they turn my hands to
Bricks and my heart to stone.
And watched as I sank.

What I have learned from the Magic of Harry Potter

I don't want to lose that part of myself that still believes life is magical.

Here is what I have learned in the last 14 years thanks to and through Harry Potter

"It is our choices, Harry, that show us who we truly are, far more than our abilities." 

"To the well-organized mind, death is but the next great adventure." 

"It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live." 

"It takes much bravery to stand up to our enemies but we need as much bravery to stand up to our friends." 

"It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all - in which case, you fail by default." 

"Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?" 

"It matters not what someone is born, but what they grow to be." 

"We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are." 

"The truth. It is a beautiful and terrible thing, and should be treated with caution."

"Harry was left to ponder in silence the depths to which girls would sink to get revenge." 

Every Life Lesson I Have Faced... Harry Faced As Well. 

No More Magic

   

"It is our choices, Harry, that show us who we truly are, far more than our abilities." 

I hate to admit it. I walked out of Harry Potter. Sad... I swear this isn't a spoiler. It is more so the fact that, that was the end of my childhood. The end of a large portion of my life. 

I'd love to say it had no effect on me. And that I didn't watch it or did watch it because it was cool at the time. 

I have always been a Harry Potter fan. Since I was 8 years old. Since I read the very first book in 3rd grade with Mrs. Funk. And I was hooked, magic in the hands of the young and the young at heart. 

I waited for every book to come out. I have seen every movie the day it came out. I have dragged my father, my uncle, my sister, my friends. Anyone and everyone I could to experience the magic that I felt. A magic that I have lived with for 14 years.

14 years later... I guess we've all grown up. I own every book and I have seen every movie. I have scrutinized and looked forward to every step of my Harry Potter journey. I grew, I molded, I became something with Harry. Those characters were my friends, my enemies, and myself.

Am I ready to move on? To leave my childhood behind? I hate to see it end. I want the magic to last forever. 

I don't want to lose that side of me and replace it with this void of lost magic and unimaginable adventure. 

I don't want to lose that part of myself that still believes life is magical.

S.Z.'s

These monsters exist everywhere. They grudgingly lurk behind windows and television screens. They can be found roaming the streets and through the schools. They can be found around corners... waiting... to pounce. 

        They are... Superficial Zombies.

S.Z’s are the people that are only out for themselves but don’t even know what they want. They live in this materialistic superficial bubble. They haven’t figured out how to reflect on themselves but they know that they are the only ones that matter. 
     It amazes me that roaming around the world there are plenty of superficial zombies. Just waiting for the world to acknowledge that it exists for them and everyone should bow down. 
     But they are zombies. They have no thought process other than that of material wealth and their looks. They only care about what people see, instead of who they are. They are dead... to the world of the living and they walk around sucking the life out of all of those they touch.

My goal as a teacher, as a friend, as a person is to pull these S.Z’s out of that trance and bring them into a world that can enlighten them into new realms and bring them into new beginnings. My goal is to bring them past the realm of not possible, shallowness, and materialism. And into the realm of reality.

I want S.Z.’s to improve on a level that they didn’t know could exist and give them the questions that they can form their own answers. I want to arm them with the power... of reflection. 

Play Your Heart Out

You can't strive to be significant
If you aren't willing to see blood, sweat and tears
You won't play hard enough
or dive into the depths of your affairs.

You can attend to your immaculate play-by-plays.
But there is no single gameplan for love.
There are hundreds-- thousands.

"Love is For After The Game"

And NOT ONE of them compels a win.

So continue to take heed to the plans for attack
Your strategies of defense
And even your fraudulent flags of surrender
No one can successfully predict the end of every season

None are a promise of a game,
an oath for completion, or a contract for a ring.
So stop planning for the endgame of "Happily Ever After."
Instead, give yourself completely to the game.

Forget nothing, cherish everything
And play your heart out.
Because that feeling--
is the only guarantee for greatness you have.

Fiz Out? I don't know the name yet.

New blog coming soon. The Breakdown of... (cue the lonely girl song) 

an Education Girl Living in a Business World.