I have a lot on my mind today. It's my last day of college classes. Next semester all i have left to do is student teach. its crazy, the reality of the rest of my life is seeping in every chance it gets.
The rest of my life.
I won't pretend I know where it is going. I wouldn't dare be that naive. However, if it goes where I want it to, I know I will find a way into your arms every night.
My life before you was hectic. I was young and naive and I thought I knew what I wanted. I thought I knew who I wanted to be and where I wanted to go. But I got my heart broken, I got chewed up and spit out. But I needed it. I needed a bit of tough love to toughen who I am.
It's like everything that has happened in my life has made me strong enough for this.
A White Sox Game.
When people ask how we met, they laugh. It only seems to perfect to be true. Me, with my passions and crazy emotions over this sport, would meet someone that would turn my world upside-down in a place that couldn't be more up my alley. I got so many "You are kidding me, right?", "Really?" and "Figures" it could last me a lifetime.
This love that is over 9,000 miles apart for God-Only-Knows-How-Long is more than amazing. Before I had the hard times in my life, I never would have been able to handle this. Starting a relationship based off of messages on Facebook? Pictures that keep me holding on? Talking for 3 hours a day via texting on a good day? Thinking about what you are doing and what we would do together every other second of the day. Living for myself and being able to be there for you. Sharing as much as I can think of while sharing every important thought with you in such a brief time.
You are the best person I have ever met. And I knew the second we (finally) got together (my bad babe ;) ) that I wanted to be with you as much as possible.
Distance is hard. Longer distance is harder. And the military can be downright disarming. But it can be soooo easy too. So many people say they couldn't handle it. So many tell me that they are not that strong. But what they don't realize is its not that hard. 90% of the time its easy because in the end it is so worth it. Just getting a silly text from you or smiling from the cute things you say makes it easy. They make me continuously fall in love with you.
I have learned a lot about who I am since I met you. I have learned a lot about love since I met you. And I want to remind you that I will put up with the distance, the hardships and the rocky roads if it means I can talk to you for just a minute a day.
I never knew love could be so strong. I never knew I could be so strong. And I owe most of that to you and that fateful White Sox Game.
I know my life is turning around. And the "real world" is as frightening as it is exciting half the time. I just wanted to say thanks for the 80 billionth time. Thanks for being such a handsome part of my life. Your love is better than anything I ever imagined. Thanks for this time together and I can't wait to see what is in store for us in the future.
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